Epidsode {One}

Nov 27th, 1985
Begin a chapter that only
God knew what this Birth
would bring him, already
consider a blessing from
the hands of his Parents.

Fast Forwarding... To Maybe
1995 a 10 year old kid
whom life was just becoming
miserable without the like
of two parents being around..
The divorce the break up and
the reason behind the break up..
and the older I got, I begin to
understand why the Break up
occurred.. I remember waking up
on a August 24th 1980 something
I do know I was maybe 4 or 5, so
I will go on and say 1988... Anyways
It was my father Birthday and he was
sleep and I thought for a Birthday
present it would be cool if I could
fix him some BREAKFAST! Leading up
to this celebration, I thought I knew
how to cook because I have seen my
GRANDMOTHER; a hundred times cooking
and back then I thought u learned
something by observing but I guess not...
so back to that DAY! So after I got them
Pancakes done, I went to wake him up.. But
to only run into my dad sniffing Coke! But
at that this time I wasn't sure what It was..
So I seen him moving his nose to the left and
too the right... Anyhow, I brushed it off and
grab my dad hands and showed him what I made
for him for his Birthday... But in returned
I got a ass whooping and a bloody nose from
him hitting me In my nose. Tear's landing on
me from him crying and apologizing for him
hitting me in the face. But at that time
I had no time for HATRED! I just wanted
to do something for him for his Birthday.


I have to admit that it wasn't easy
picking and choosing which parent
you wanted to stay with over them
periods of time. But I had to make
a decision after a few NEGLECTION
period of my dad being to busy
to be with his SON.. So I made
my pick anonymous and chose to
live with my MOTHER.. Growing up
It wasn't easy being a little
boy living with out a father figure
at home to provide help from a man
point of view. So instead I went
to My Uncles.. My Mother Brother's
not to mention that my Mother two
older Brothers were the totally opposite
but could coached on a Great Ass whooping.
Just to get a idea on them so You could be
clear on what I'm facing.. First Brother
is about 6'3 at least 240lb and that's just
the quiet one. Second Uncle is about 6'2 and
about 255lbs and He don't give damn who you
was, his thing was "IF YOU OLD ENOUGH TO TALK
BACK, THEN U OLD ENOUGH TO GET THE HELL SMACK
OUTTA YOU" So my intentions was alway's good
when It came them.. But did I mention that My
Mother Baby Brother.. He wasn't so tall but
he was at least 5'10 and very strong and I knew
how strong he was because I ran into him quite
a few times. Just so you know I'm a only
child so I didn't have the knowledge of
having a BROTHER OR SISTER.. It was just
me and Me only.. SO I HAD TO LIE AND U KNOW
HOW THAT PRETEND BROTHER AND SISTER THING GO..
SO NOW U WALKING AROUND WITH QUITE OF FEW Good
Brothers and Sisters.. Not even sworn IN! But
we were that closed than we were FAMILY..

Back then you didn't have to be blood, all
you had to do was to be a FRIEND AND SHARE
THE SAME INTEREST.. But @ the age of 8 and
9 who don't show the same interests. I MEAN
WHO WASN'T WATCHING POWER RANGERS OR CAPTAIN
PLANET.. Who wasn't pretending to be they
child hood heroe when they that age? But
being without a father really hurt me
because It was times when I needed a
father to be apart of my life. An not
just because I played sports; @ the age
of 11 I playing baseball and I was playing
with guy's older than I was. I was playing
what you call Major League.. But I wasn't
getting paid for it, I was the catcher and
I was really good @ it... So I quit because
I realize that all I wanted was a father.. Not
a Athletic director.. I was hitting Puberty and
I had no one to go to But My Mother...DO YOU KNOW
HOW HARD IT IS TO TELL YOUR MOTHER OR HAVE YOUR MOTHER
WITNESS YOUR PENIS BEING ON HARD! JUST KNOW IT'S KIND OF
EMBARRASSING..

To be continued......